I CONVINCED A GIRL TO TRY ON A DIAPER!

Cross that one off my bucket list, Functioneers!

I mentioned in my last post that a young lesbian had seen a post I had written on Reddit's Dirty Pen Pal thread sharing that she had a diaper fantasy of her own and reached out to me a few days after I put up a diaper based prompt. I don't know why she chose me to confide in, all I'll say is I'm fucking glad I did! The original post I got from her is as follows:

Hey I saw your dpp post [You Mal-Pals can find it here, the two paragraphs above the photo of the lady filling her diaper!] and honestly I would love to chat with you!

I have recently been kind of attracted to the idea of diapers. Mostly due to the control and care aspect I feel like they would provide. I feel like the control aspect is obvious. The person taking care of me would essentially have control of my hygiene. The care aspect would mostly be all of the little stuff like the diapering, powdering, washing, inspecting and what not, which is almost like pampering.

I guess there is also the whole private humiliation thing going on as well. I'd be wearing a diaper which is honestly rather humiliating but just we would know about it.

I have actually been kind of interested in diapers for the last two or three months. Kind of like you had in your post I have a partner which I would love to have do this for me. But I'm honestly not sure how I would ask her. That and she's currently out of the country for research.

Although because she is away for at least another month (fuck covid or it would have been sooner) I did actually go out and pick up some diapers. Admittedly I've been too embarrassed to try them on yet.

A quick note about my self. I'm 23f. I have a decent body at like 5'5. A little bit of pudge but I workout occasionally so I keep it under control. I work as a data analyst (normally although currently not).

Either way I would love to chat with you!

SHE would love to chat with ME? She said so twice! Unfortunately this came through at 3:30 am on a night I actually slept through, but I couldn't wait to talk to her! It's weird, I've role-played with two girls who have diaper fetishes on Reddit, one of whom I'm still playing with. My other long term Reddit playmate let me put her in a diaper before caging her up for the sake of my barroom floor! And a certain someone I've been e-mailing has gone from tolerating me fantasizing about her in diapers to encouraging it to nursing a not-so-secret fetish of her own. But nobody has ever wanted to chat about what they like about diapers or why they find them sexy. Not until Wednesday morning, anyhow! I wrote this back to her a little after nine:

Hi Alyssa,

To me that is exactly what is sexy about them. Very cool that you've actually bought some! My Canadian friend really seems to want to do it too, she's just too embarrassed to ask her husband. I had a bit of a go at her on my blog, but we're still friends! I'm still role-playing with one of the girls that answered my post so that's a positive too!

To me they are the perfect way for a dom to illustrate both care and control of sub, plus there's scope for teasing and humiliation and low key public play.

So how long have you had your diapers for? And what's stopping you putting one on?

I didn't hear back from her all day, and assumed I had lost my window of opportunity. I mentioned her when I wrote in my blog that night, saying I hoped she would answer my post. I guess she's not online much, because I didn't get her response until 2.40 am my time!

I completely agree! It's just this thing we're giving up some degree of agency and letting someone else take a little bit of control just seems rather attractive to me. That and yeah the pampering that would be associated just feels like it would be really rather intimate.

I've had them for about a month. Honestly I think it's just nerves. Like I know I want to try them. But I'm really not sure how I'll feel wearing them or if they'll even look good on me. And also it is a little humiliating of course.

Luckily I was up all night, so I was able to rattle off a response within the next ten minutes:

They're not designed to look good, but if you wear them with confidence you will look sexy. I've seem a lot of pictures of women in diapers over the past decade, and the ones who are clearly having a blast are always the most attractive.

Though a little pouting can be cute too!

I guess her comment about looking good had thrown me, even diapers designed for the ABDL crowd aren't designed to flatter the wearer; their form is designed to accommodate their function, which is efficiently storing bodily fluids. They generally don't enhance the beauty of the wearer, the same way a gag or a gimp mask or a spreader bar don't make the user look good; it's what we infer about the wearer through the use of these items that makes them sexy. I guess Alyssa (not her real name!) got what I meant because a few minutes later she wrote back:

I mean I guess that makes sense yeah XD. I feel like I've just been comparing them to panties I guess.

I guess that makes me feel a little better. I'm still a little worried I'd be a little disappointed with how they look or feel or something. I just really want to enjoy them even just a little.

I kind of get what she's going for; I really wanted a pinball machine for years, until I went on vacation to Portland, Oregon and spent maybe five hours on about forty machines on Free Play mode in a retro arcade/bar called Ground Control. It was great, and incredible value for $7 entry, but I soon realised the joy I got from my own machine would never justify the cost of buying one or the hassle of maintaining one. Still, you can't go through life afraid to try things out of fear of disappointment! We swapped a couple more messages.

I'm sure you will. At this point merely trying them on after thinking about it for a month and discussing it with an internet rando is bound to give you a thrill!

I mean should I? I do honestly want to. I'm just still a tad worried I guess.

Oh and I have no clue will I need powder? That's something that's been keeping me from wearing them. I don't want to have to go to the doctors with a rash I have to explain.

Oh my God, she's down for it! Need to play my cards right here! I should point out that you should probably never take health and safety advice from strangers on the internet, especially those who place their own financial rewards or sexual gratification over your own best interests. I've never diapered anyone or worn a diaper I remember, so I pretty much pulled an answer out of my ass based on what I've read and seen in porn videos. I'm reminded of a time at university when a girl I shared a kitchen with in the student housing asked if she could use cling film to cover a dish before putting it in the oven to bake, the same way yon can use aluminium foil. I told her I assumed you could, because I was an asshole and thought it would be funny to see her ruin her meal out of stupidity. I'm not always a good person!

Well, I'm obviously biased, but yes, you absolutely should. I'm only ten years older than you but this year I've confronted the fact that hang ups and baggage have been weighing me down for far too long and now it might be too late to make a genuine, physical human connection. So follow your bliss. You've bought the diapers, which is the hard part. Just pick an evening, do whatever you do to relax, and try one on. There is literally nothing bad that can happen to you experimenting with this in private.

As for the powder, you'll be fine without it unless you plan on sitting in a wet diaper for an extended period of time. You wouldn't worry about wearing a wet swimming costume for half an hour, it's basically the same deal, the powder really just prevents chafing. Even if you did decide to keep one on for long enough to get a rash some Vaseline would take care of it. You'll be fine. Put one on, have a giggle in the mirror, maybe take a photo to show your partner at some point, and rub one out with a Hitachi through the diaper. Why would you regret it? You have your whole life ahead of you, in twenty years it'll either be the start of something great or a story about a stupid thing you did when you were young, bored and horny because of COVID.

I genuinely don't see a downside here. Do it! 😜✌

Frustratingly, my tablet doesn't actually notify me visually or audibly when I get a message on Reddit, it just slips into my notifications unannounced. Combine that with my slower typing speed on the tablet and it took me fifty minutes between her asking me and me laying it all on the line. I had no idea if she would, but when I checked about half an hour it turns out I'd missed a string of messages! She had answered me right away, and then five more times over the course of twenty minutes! It seems my cajoling had worked!

Fuck it you've genuinely convinced me XD. That's some impressive speech you got there. You better only use it for the good of humanity.

I'll be back while I go retrieve the diapers.

I guess I'll just put one on for the night. I don't really just want to put one on than take it off again. I fell like that would be slightly wasteful

I'm back diapers in hand!

I guess I'll just change on my bed or something. I feel like on the floor is a little gross without a matt or something.

Huh, these are actually like the pull up type. I was kind of expecting the tapes but these do look closer to actual panties I guess.

They feel alright too! I was expecting more if a plasticy texture or material. But it mostly just feels like some kind of fabric which is actually quite a bit if a relief.

Ok I'm putting it on now.

It's actually not bad!

It's suprisingly comfortable. Maybe not quite as much as a nice soft pair of panties but still. The padding between my legs applying a little bit of pressure to my undercarriage and legs also feels kinda nice.

It actually dosn't look that bad either. It's a little ruffly on the sides and along the waist band. It's just about my nude color as well which is quite welcome.

Well, I missed all of this exciting development, so it was about fifteen minutes before I responded:

Ooh, you sexy little thing, I'm so happy for you! You have made my night!

I can't believe you hadn't even opened the package before! You've been really brave! I wish I could give you a hug!

I bet you look fucking dynamite!

And I bet you feel silly for being so scared!

Then, an hour and change later, when I realised she wasn't coming back:

I hope you tell me how your night went, if you wet yourself and if you came! I'd love to share our conversation - minus your handle - on my blog, if that's cool. There's a lot of kink content, and how I deal with being homeless and bedridden, and our little chat has been a big bucket of win for me, and I hope for you too. You can check me out at https://tankertonlatch.blogspot.com/ to get a feel of my writing and the sort of thing I write about.

You are awesome!

So there we go! I've been fantasizing about women in diapers since before I started jerking off. I went over half my life never really thinking I'd talk a real life woman into wearing one; where would I even start? And then I started this blog about six weeks ago because I had reached out to a woman to tell her I thought she should wear a diaper, hoping that by adding my voice to the dozens saying the same thing I would be swaying her to do so, at least a little, and though that hasn't happened yet (though it seems more likely every time it comes up!). This blog was literally created because I wanted to talk a girl into a diaper, and now I've done just that!

Okay, so it wasn't a particularly noble act, and she didn't need a lot of convincing, but I'm taking the win, and what are you doing with your life that's so great? She hasn't written me back, but I'm taking her silence as consent, and I've changed the name away from her already fake Reddit handle. I chose Alyssa after Joey Lauren Adams character in Chasing Amy because I guess that film was right, all any lesbian really needs is for a handsome heterosexual male to give her a big speech about what is best for her sexually!

Man, I've seen that movie a ton of times. Fantastic commentary track too.

Nothing much else has happened over the past couple of days. I'm still playing with Babycakes and Stinky Lips. I answered a couple of interesting penpal prompts that wound up being pretty fruitless, though there were none I was hugely keen on so nothing lost there. I answered one pretty vague post, she's either taken it down or it's been removed, but it was a very vague, open ended post from a girl who had no limits and wanted to make someone else feel good. I wrote to her with my trusty kinklist, she gave me her Snapchat handle. I downloaded the app and write to her. Her profile pic was a face-obscuring photo taken by a woman in Wilma Flintstone underwear.

Too busy looking at her ass to make the joke about making her bed rock.

Honestly, the thing that sticks out most, other than the Dutch angle (is that a PC term? I do not mean to imply that the people of the Netherlands have legs of differing sizes), is the pipe sticking out from the far wall. Is that a waste water pipe running through a hotel bedroom? Very sexy!

Anyway, she made it very clear right away that I would have to pay for any interaction between us. I don't know what her success rate is with no preamble and one lame photo on a site where hundreds of people are offering to chat for free every day, but there you go. I appreciated her honesty, and told her I wasn't interested but would love a price list anyway.

Those numbers seem very low! If legitimate, she would be way better off on OnlyFans rather than appealing to guys one-on-one. Unlimited nudes is promising, does she have a video on her naked body 24/7? I told her she was underselling herself and asked what she was prepared to do on a custom video, but the only response I got was "Want it?" I  didn't.

I had another chat with my Bumble match, I don't know why she keeps initiating conversation as she only gives one or two word answers to any questions. I asked her about her weekend plans, and her kids, and her job, but got very little back. She did ask me if I had any luck using the app, and I told her I'd only matched with her. I was tempted to write a follow up saying "So no." but that would be callous even for me! Like I said, I am not a good person!

Peace!

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